Sappho Here!!!

HELLO! Just a little introduction!
My name is Sappho and I live in a small town in GA. I am married with several children and I am a homemaker. I have been a Christian my entire life, and while I do not think it's fair to say I'm not anymore, I DO think it's fair to say I've 'branched out'.

It all started with a question:
"Does God have a Penis???"

When I determined the answer was an obvious and resounding "no", my world started to break apart...could "god" be a woman? Could "he" be...*gulp* a GODDESS? Was I becoming a pagan all because of that question? I didn't feel honest with the status quo anymore, and was questioning everything I ever thought I knew about God.
Well, I came up with some answers that suit me just fine. I came to the conclusion that "god" is not a he...nor a she. "GOD" is beyond the limitations of sex, though I do believe God fully relates to each sex perfectly. After all if we are "created in his image", yet we are male and female and "he" is only male...well, there's a problem there. Perhaps God is both and neither at the same time. I don't bother myself with the intricacies beyond the basics. I like a quote from Sue Monk Kidd who was talking to a nun one day who told her "It's about time people knew God was more than two men and a bird!". I agree completely.
I even came up with a new term to call "God", since when we say "God" we automatically think "big man in the sky". That term was borrowed from a lady online who called it "G.G."....it stands for God/Goddess, and I feel it is a much less limiting thing to call that which created and loves us. I feel like I am still in the mental process of releasing them from the shackles of being a penis-endowed figure, but this feels more right. Balance just seems perfect to me, and it also feels right having a heavenly father AND a heavenly mother.
Sappho is not my real name, however I use it to honor the feminine spirit that has been crushed within spirituality for thousands of years. I'm not some feminist, because I don't believe in carrying the banner of one sex over the other. I do NOT believe "men are keeping us down"...I DO believe that long ago some men did try to and that some of that survived in our subconscious until today even, and I think women have fed into it themselves many times (trust me, I'm a part of the homeschool community...LOTS of women in our area and in this community simply believe men are above women, and because of that, the finger that feminists tend to point at men, I tend to point at them AND us as well)...but I do not believe that as a whole women are in any way kept down as a group any more than they are complacent with it. I'm simply reclaiming the beauty and proper place of the feminine within spirituality within my life. The poet Sappho had nearly all of her work burned by a king...all we have left of the beauty she wrote for us are some nearly intact poems and some fragments that survived. I use her name to remind me that the place of the woman was intentionally concealed and destroyed, but that it CAN survive.
Am I still a Christian? Well, I still love Christ and I still believe him to be the son of GG. Because of the balance and love that makes sense of a feminine divine, I think it makes sense that this divine would want to provide a way for us to be with them, so Christ's being here and dying and rising still make sense to me. However, I've come to feel a very strong connection to the earth, energy, etc, and have come to include many things that people might consider pagan in my religious practices. This also just feels right to me. Who made all the rules anyways? What makes frankensinse and Mhyrr OK gifts for Christ at his birth, but herbs and insence wrong for our religious purposes? The men who followed a star were called wise back then...it's pagan astrology today! Who drew all these lines? Who made all of these rules?

So that's where I am and that's where I'm coming from. Hope you'll join me!!!